Taylor Who?

You know that show, Samantha Who?, on ABC? I don't get to watch it very often, but it's a funny one. Samantha, played by Christina Applegate, lost her memory after being in a coma following an accident. Every episode features her rediscovering some part of herself or her past.

Sometimes I feel like I'm in an episode of Taylor Who? and I'm rediscovering who I once was. My life has changed so dramatically in the past few years that when I try to think back to life before children I hardly recognize myself. I used to sleep till 11 AM? I used to be able to eat whenever I wanted, shower whenever I wanted, go the bathroom whenever I wanted? I could just go to the mall on a whim, no planning required?

Today I was thinking about our upcoming trip to San Diego and how different it will be this time from the last time Nick and I went. Before, we didn't have a care in the world. We went where we wanted, whenever we felt like it. But now, things have to be carefully planned and orchestrated. Naps, feeding schedules, and diaper bag necessities have to be considered before we do anything. If we don't go prepared, we don't go at all (at least not happily, anyway). I used to get annoyed about having to plan so much, but now I'm used it. I'm finally getting settled into a new way of life and I'm sort of enjoying the structure and routine.

Taylor Who? would be an interesting comedy, but I think its appeal would be short-lived. Good thing God already knows who I was, who I am, and who He's making me. The best part is: He loves me anyway.