No, that's not why she's crying, but it's sweet that you looked at us and didn't notice the differences between my daughter and yours.
We get there 15 minutes early for a reason. It's not because I'm one of those "on time" people; I couldn't be more the opposite. No, my daughter has extra time to transition into school. And she needs it.
I picked up her watercolor painting from her folder after I signed her in. I felt the tears welling in my eyes as I looked at it so I quickly made my way to the exit. I'm sure all of the moms waiting to drop off their kids don't understand why I rush out of there. I don't want to talk or get to know each other or visit and make pleasantries about our days. I'm tired.
I've been up since 6 after a night of little sleep. Our 18 month old has decided to go back to newborn-style night wakings every few hours. Then I wake and it's breakfast for everyone and lunches and snacks for the two oldest. We rush them off to school and I jump into all of the medications our special child takes. She has therapy 5 days a week. Then there's lunch and school in the afternoon for her. Did I mention I'm tired?
Dinner, homework, baths, bed time, little sleep again. The next day will likely be much like this one.
But today...I have her watercolor painting in hand. Her special ed assistant made sure I knew she did it all by herself. Something she's never done before. And so, it's a beautiful reminder of the progress she is making. I'm so proud of her and the fight she has to beat this autism. She can't verbalize it to me, but I see it. I see it on her determined face and I see it in the precious strokes of her first solo painting.
He is with us. He is our hope. Keep fighting the good fight, my darling Brecken. I will too.
Love this, with tears welling up in my eyes. Ashleigh used to love painting in her combined preschool so much that she would do it behind her back. =) It will all be worth it, right!?!
ReplyDeleteIt will! It will all be made right in its time.
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